Went through our albums last night,
You were beautiful and I looked happy.
I miss you even now.
I get chills.
I miss the advice you gave, that I never took
And the way you looked when you wanted me.
I miss the three courses you would make
And the flowers I’d arranged on the dinner table.
I miss the foolishness after you came home from work,
And closing the blinds.
We had so many memories that didn’t include her,
Now I am making new memories
With new people, and it all seems so different.
Even I am different,
More aware of the dangers,
Venturing more carefully, double wrapped in armor.
How did I let my guard down with you before?
All you ever had to do was smile and I forgot everything.
– Shammy 7/11/12 4:43am